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sword_breaker ([personal profile] sword_breaker) wrote2015-10-11 04:54 pm

Future Stuff ::1:: Been Up All Night

[This was not clicking for some reason. He has been staring at these reports for the past hour and half, nothing having been accomplished besides from papers being shuffled around in a semblance of productivity and knives thrown into the pillar behind him out of sheer frustration. His fingers tapping along the worn metal to keep himself from doing further property damage at this rate.

The bottom line was that stress was gnawing at him.

Not from the job though. If anything, reports should came as second nature after the past few months and coordinating had been relatively easy once the rough first week passed by. Being a vanguard should cause less stress than doing actually fieldwork yet here he was at a breaking point almost.

There was nothing. Absolutely nothing. Those stupid letters and photos and other bullshit weren't coming in anymore.

Something had to have happened and he's stuck here in this goddamn tower like a fresh rezzed moron.

His hands were effectively tied as well. No one could be sent out without the other two's approval and even then it'd be brought forward to discussion by the head vanguard. Which means that nothing could happen for days and he'll be sitting on his ass like he already was. All it did was make him all the more frustrated about having given up his freedom to leave as he so pleased because at least then someone would be out there trying to figure out what happened.

The hunter buries his face in his hands with an exhausted sigh leaving him. He probably looked like hell at this rate. Throwing himself into long hours had made his sleep schedule an abysmal handful of hours in the past few days. Half the time he didn't know how he wasn't passing out during meetings. Be easy to. Pull the hood further down, lean down on the table and maybe get an hour or two of on and off rest. Might be the best time to try it out to be quite honest since the hall was dead before attempting it when there'd be actual repercussions to getting caught.

He grunts after stretching out on the table some, pillowing his head with his arms for something close to comfortable. Shade is called out of transmat to keep a watch on things while an attempt at a nap was made. The ghost whirling softly in concern but does as told.

Things suck. Might as well try to ignore it for the time being.]
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[personal profile] notthatkindofkell 2015-10-13 02:14 am (UTC)(link)
Okay, you probably can, but that would be boring. And an awful idea.

[They've reached the hall now. She's moving at a rather steady clip, even with his weight over her shoulder.]

Besides, I bet Andrei's found Liam by now. It'll be a good surprise.
Edited 2015-10-13 02:23 (UTC)
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[personal profile] notthatkindofkell 2015-10-13 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Mykelle stops.]

He what?

James, why didn't you say anything?
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[personal profile] notthatkindofkell 2015-10-13 03:17 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh. Right.

She does, and she's even gentle about it.]
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[personal profile] rocketsout 2015-10-13 03:28 am (UTC)(link)
[Get to the hangar, get his ship, get going somewhere. It's not a good plan, but it's at least a plan. Lakshmi will have to wait, he'll just have to make do with the rations he has, he needs to leave before something else goes wrong.

And of course it does. Just his luck.

Shade's apparently seen him, and where there's Shade there's usually James, and what is this 'official vanguard business' nonsense? He just wants to leave in peace, before things take a turn. He's still tired, still hasn't gotten a shower, and still feels rough over everything that's transpired.

It's not half a second later that Tarlowe materializes with a grating, metallic noise and an agitated spin of his fins as he floats in front of his guardian.]


Don't have any business with the vanguard right now.

[Which kills him inside.]
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[personal profile] rocketsout 2015-10-13 04:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Shade's still as eloquent as ever, it seems, but at the very least the affirmation that James isn't around means that he doesn't quite know how to feel. That should be a good thing, right? But there's disappointment beyond it, and it only adds to the guilt and sick in his chest.

One hand strays up to scoop his ghost out of the air, holding the thing to his chest despite Tarlowe's indignant noises contrary.]


...alright. Thanks. Go on back.

[And he doesn't head home right away, because he's not certain how to interpret the message. Spends so much time thinking it over and over again, pacing through the hangar with no rhyme or reason for his patterns.

Home. It is home, isn't it? Of course it is. It's been home for a while now.

He wants to believe, he wants to believe so much that things are okay, that he can go back, the door will open, and there will be the same snippy comments and fond expression that he's missed.

It takes the better part of an hour before he's able to gather up his courage though. The walk over is quiet, filled with apprehension, and even when he arrives, he knocks. Barging straight in feels like such a bad idea, not with how delicate the situation is.]
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[personal profile] rocketsout 2015-10-13 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
[Maybe this was a horrible idea. A seconds tick on, he's more and more sure of it, because this can only make things worse, regardless of the note or not. He doesn't trust himself to handle things anymore, not after last night.

But when the door finally opens, any protest he had dies on his tongue, because the sight that greets him sparks something profoundly painful and fond at the same time. Despite everything, there's a hint of a grin, because even with all the fighting and anger, he can't be angry. That's his hoodie, and if he's being honest, it looks a lot better on James. Maybe he's a bit biased.

But he has to find his voice, and it's still rough when he finally is able to speak.]


I mean...kinda preoccupied yesterday.

[It's such a weak joke, and it rings a little hollow, but he's trying.]
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[personal profile] rocketsout 2015-10-13 05:39 am (UTC)(link)
[A legitimate fear, for those in their mutual line of work. He's worried for the hunter more times than he could ever admit. It's understandable. His own lack of foresight made a bad situation worse.]

...see, always when I get out there, I know I'm coming back.

[He looks away slightly.]

'cause I got something really good waiting at home. So I have to come back.

[And he'll fight through hell to make sure that he does. It's a moment before he spares a glance back over, grinning crookedly.]

Missed you.
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[personal profile] rocketsout 2015-10-13 06:03 am (UTC)(link)
You really don't want to do that, I'm nasty right now.

[But he doesn't move to push James away, and instead reaches very carefully to wind his arms around the other. The relief is nearly palatable, and while he may never admit it, there's a tightness to his chest and a bit of wet around his eyes. It's good to be home.]

And it's totally true.

[The helmet though-]

Took a look at it?
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[personal profile] rocketsout 2015-10-13 06:23 am (UTC)(link)
Eh, I mean, gonna have to clean the hell out of the undersuit anyways. What's another hoodie or whatever?

[Still though, that's not even on the radar of important at the time. He laughs under his breath, rolling his eyes.]

And okay, but you like just mentioned the magic words right there. Like I will probably kill someone for a shower. Or beg. Or trade lewd favors. Really.

[Oh...he did leave it, didn't he? There's a small stab of guilt for that, and it does dull his grin just a bit.]

Sorry about that.
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[personal profile] rocketsout 2015-10-13 06:51 am (UTC)(link)
Not stealing if I give it to you.

[Feeling the other move away, he loosens his hold, pulling back slightly to give James some room.]

See, I'm at that point. I will get down on my hands and knees and beg buck naked if it means I get to finally see running water again. You know how Venus is, I feel disgusting.

[He falls quiet for a bit though, processing that revelation, but in the end he closes his eyes and very carefully hugs the hunter close for a short moment.]

...can I come in?
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[personal profile] rocketsout 2015-10-13 07:21 am (UTC)(link)
Then it looks like we're sharing.

[Despite everything he smiles, eyes closing at the contact, though he pulls away just for a moment to gently bump his forehead against James' before leaning back in.]

Kinda like this idea. Think I'm probably gonna take you up on it right now. Kinda definitely like being home.

[And as reticent as he is to move, he breaks the hold ever so slightly, tugging the hunter inside.]
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[personal profile] rocketsout 2015-10-13 08:04 am (UTC)(link)
If you did, that'd totally fall under 'cruel and unusual'.

[It feels good to be joking again though, and he stops for a moment to press his forehead against James' again for a short while, but in the end he breaks away with a small, fond, grin.]

Promise I'll reiterate how much I missed you later until you're sick of hearing it, but I'm gonna be a dick and steal the shower now until further notice.

[And he's off to do just that, haphazardly stripping out of his armor on the way there and leaving Tarlowe to transmat it away.]

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